I haven't been able to sleep lately. I had insomnia really bad during Alex's adoption. I've been trying to figure out what my problem is.
I think I've figured it out.
I want to adopt another baby from Guatemala. By itself, this wouldn't seem like a big deal. I always thought that we would adopt again - someday. I thought maybe we'd wait a few years and then start again. (maybe for a little girl)
Adoptions in Guatemala are very much up in the air right now. The DOS is even suggesting that people shouldn't start adoptions from Guatemala. There is going to be a lot of changes going on in the near future, and no one knows what that is going to mean. Here's a link to the latest from the DOS.
I think I might be grieving. I feel like I'm losing a child. It's the weirdest thing as we are in NO WAY ready to start another adoption. (financially, emotionally, physically, etc.) I just have this feeling that I may not have an opportunity to adopt another child from Guatemala and that makes me REALLY sad.
Pray for me....I need to figure out where God is leading me right now. I know his plans are bigger than mine. I need to trust in Him.
Oh - and I haven't talked to Jay about any of this, so keep your mouths shut!!! :)